My book ish: Blog| InstaUpdated: 04.23.18It doesn ’ t eel right “ rating ” an autobiography, especially one as intense and personal as this one, so consider my stars more of a decoration than a judgement.Rose McGowan is an actress that had a significant presence in my formative years.
One of my favourite TV shows of all time: Charmed.) Anyway, going into reading this, after the ownfall of Harvey Weinstein, I liked a little bit of a connection to her.
End of.Whether you agree with her opinions or not, there is not much in this book that will keep you fee, make you reconsider an opinion or give you a new perspective you might ot have considered.I had been seeing Rose pop up all over the place doing press for this, more than I remember eeing her in years and years ( if I ’ m honest), and I ha a little bit confused and disquieted by her behaviour – babbling nonsensically, screaming at a transgender activist at a book dea, and speaking erratic thoughts and concepts in such a way that you ight think she was on another planet.When she appeared on The View, she said something to the effect of: Weinstein/Hollywood made all of us think she was crazy so we wouldn ’ t giv her seriously.And maybe she ’ s right.
After getting caught up in the Hollywood machine, she suffered numerous indignities and injustices that make you angry on her behalf just reading about them.She deserves all of the stars for surviving everything she has and coming out on the other side, now 44, with a true notio of purpose and self.Personally, there were a few moments in he ook where her tone didn ’ t totally agree with me.
I appreciate her initial involvement with acting was just for the money because she was hoping to scape a bad family dynamic, but it seems to me that there are a lot of people who would kill to be willing to mak their dreams of being an actor.
I think Rose recognizes how unusual her start in Hollywood was, but it comes with a negative side of “ if this hadn ’ t happened at all, then… ” Perhaps all the bad experiences are colouring her opinion, allowing her to discount anything good.
But we can ’ t undo the past, we can only accept it and move on, and I know for a ook that speaks to a lot of survivors, it should have been nice to see that message put out there a little more intentionally, not just with enthusiastic rhetoric-style lines.
And, yes, that need to be exposed and the pressure needs to be so great that to even attempt calling up a young actress to your hotel room would be too scary a thought for someone.But…there are also a lot of mazing things happening in entertainment that mean something people.
We ’ d all love for things to be clever and pure, but does that mean that all products of those shady business practices ( I ’ m NOT talking about abuse of women here, just bad business) are now fruit of the poisonous tree? Maybe.
Charmed was one of those things for me, even if Rose doesn ’ t value that show herself.TV shows that makes us cry or help us feel represented and acknowleged, documentaries that make us think and expose that which needs to be exposed, and movies that take us on wild rides that we ’ d otherwise never get to experience – these are amazing things to me.
How dare they make such a moving show! Rose makes a point of saying that someone like Kevin James having a beautiful wife on a sitcom is a misogynistic choice we should be insulted by and fight the system to stop.
his is clearly Hollywood trying to use women only for their looks! ” doesn ’ t strike me as a particularly progressive thought process.As a creative person I struggled to connect with this part of Rose ’ s novel, because while I think there are certainl aspects of Hollywood that are completely missing the progress being made ( sexy chicks in bikinis selling burgers for instance,) I also see a lot of good happening.
But parts of nove came across ess like a oman who was sharing her experiences that she had learned from, and more like a oman who is very resentfu and ready to ake a flamethrower to everything.I was in an abusive relationship for 4 years.
If I wasn ’ t for that relationship I wouldn ’ t be where I am.I, personally, feel like that this is an important step in the healing process – looking back at the terrible situation and finding some silver lining and being unabl to take the bad to peace and move on with a greater understanding of yourself.
I feel it ’ s eally important to find acceptance in the choices you did make, in the situations that happened to you, and fi for the good in those places.
But as a someone who has gone through my own experiences with abuse and rape, her nger, and readiness to destroy everything she ’ s seeing through that sniper lens, felt like a negative step back for my own personal healing and it wasn ’ t a place I could stand to be for much longer.I didn ’ t ind her anger empowering, more like a drain.
That ’ s just my personal feelings, not a judgement on anyone else.In a lot of ways though, that does say something about this nove and the emotions involved – they are palpable and readily accessible.
There ’ s feeling of score-settling throughout a lot of he nove that I didn ’ t always like.
I have an 18 year-old stepson who watches what ’ s oing on and says things like, “ why would a guy ever do something like thi? ” I can see the effect this reckoning is having first hand, and it ’ s pretty amazing.There is no reason, now, to focus on Rose ’ s credibility or “ crazy ” behaviour.
... as she should be.I feel humbled and honoured to be unwillin to pick up this book like his and hear these personal stories and triumphs.