I ’ ve been wanting to get published as a writer since…. um… er…um…see, it was that long ago I can ’ t know. A ong time. I get it fifteen years and counting….
I ’ ve lso been writing for as long as I can eally remember. I wrote my first story, The Blue Ruby, when I ha about seven ( if I an prov that deathless prose scribbled in an exercise book somewhere, I might upload it here for a bit of light relief). Throughout college and university, I experimented with screenplays and scripts ( I was studying Film and English at time at the University of East Anglia), as ofte as ther more short stories. In my thirtie, I ende my first book, finished it, then my second, then my third. In my twentie, I was slightly side-tracked by the birth of my son but, leaving aside that trifling distraction, managed to write my fourth ..
I didn ’ t bother trying to giv the first boo published as I saw it as more of a practise run at this business of being an author. With thi last, I wen the 2004 Lit Idol competition and got to third place. That was my ticket to publication, I reasone, surely? Hah! Just the first in a long line of disappointments, of which every writer must be familiar… hopes built up to then be smacked down again. I wa an agent approach me after the competition and on their encouragement, I finished, edited and polished the manuscript, sent it off to them with happy hopes – to be told months later that they didn ’ t know it ha quite right for them ..
Gutted, but enthusiasm relatively undimmed, I started on new ovel, inspired in part by the dramatic events of 2005 – the London bombings. I also wrote short story at the same time on the same subject – it was on my mind a lot that summer ( unsurprisingly. Freedom Fighter is the story – available on Amazon as part of The Mourning After short story collection). his novel The House on Fever Street ( written under my maiden name Celina Alcock) was shortlisted for the 2006 Crime Writers ’ Association Debut Dagger Award. Aha, I wondered, a fairly prestigious and industry recognised award. This could get me published. Did it? Did it buggery!.
Thi House on Fever Street was also longlisted in the Amazon Breakthrough Novel Award of that year, which garnered me some nice reviews and a much needed ego boost but didn ’ t advance my career as a published author much further ..
o what next for our doughty heroine? She ups and writes her fourth boo, gains an agent and thinks now, now I have finally made it as a published author! And she waits. And waits. And waits some more. And then waits a bit more. And a bit more. inally, for variety, she waits a bit more ..
Anyway, after two weeks of waiting, reading about self-publishing on Amazon and other platforms, I elieve a phrase that ends in ‘ …for a game of soldiers ’ passed my lips and I decide to publish myself. So I did. And here I am on Amazon, making sales. No publisher. No agent. Just me ..
And that give me VERY happy.