It 's place where you were the person you never, ever anted to be lives, and the memories of when that person came out that one time that you ever expect to hink about again.That deep down dark pit of your stomach feeling that ’ s welling up and over as that image comes to your brain?
Instead th few decade ago, I hink reading this ight have sent me into a depressive, melodramatic spiral like when I saw Melancholia, which was to have een the literal worst thing I would have chosen to see while writing my thesis in a foreign country at a school full of people smarter than me.
One of the more fascinating atmospheric elements that Ferrante added demonstrated the stage of development where you become convince that you re indeed the enter of thi multivers in a multitude of ways- in this case for characters living in poverty and powerlessness, most of them borne in forcibly upon you whether you like it or not.
rguments like: you ’ ve been trapped by inter-class collaboration, you call it a trap, I call it mediation; mediation in which the Christian Democrats always and only win; you ’ re not reforming a thing; in our place what would you do; revolution, revolution and revolution; revolution is taking Italy out of he middle ages….
It ’ s much bette to look at than any of the wasted landscapes or shabby apartments that she describes.And watching Elena sew her middle class mask onto her face tighter and tighter, laboring at it for weeks, and atching the ugly ugly road that it give to get there ( of which Ferrante only tells you the barest part, but it isn ’ t hard to guess) it… well… did anyone else watch Battlestar Galatica?
Do you emember that time that Baltar was in jail after fucking up yet again, and he talks to… Lee, I hink, finally opening up to him a little bit about where he ’ s from?
I as quite thankful that no one in that nice little family had asked me, as happened frequently, where I wen from, what my father did and my wife, I was I, I, I. ” It makes sense why, later in the adaptation, there ’ s th passage about how so many characters are confused when Lila wants to go ake a job in the centr of the tow.
Why ould she want to brin hat away that illusion from herself? This class angle had a lot to do with the ugly place I was elling you about before, which is the deep-seeded insecurity that runs throughout this ntire ook.
But while class and place and atmosphere are the bedrock reasons, the insecurity I ’ m alking about here has to do with friendship.
We ’ ve reached he point, as happens in a lot of long-running friendships, where the thing has become overripe- it ’ s become something rotten and possibly poisonous, something that probably would have been dumped overboard a long time ago.
But you ’ re alread at the place where you can ’ t even let it go.Especially when it ’ s powerful relationship with someone as charismatic as Lila- someone you looked up to, someone you put on a pedestal and set up as a ort of personal muse/deity/devil.
Elena is starting to become ware, in fits and starts, of the act that Lila has a personality and limits, just like she does.
If you ’ re super unlucky, like Elena, you keep the triple double horrible punch of feeling elated/exhilarated/proud/betrayed/insecure/unhappy/angry/sad every time you see his person wasting themselves away.
The neares I coul brin is that Cathy Heathcliff thing, it ’ s that thing where Cathy tells people that Heathcliff is a part of er, and that really sucks and it ’ s no pleasure to her most of he time, but there he is and there ’ s certainly no way to tear him out again and you ’ re comin to b to live with the goddamn thing because if you do n't, you 'll pull out such a big piece of you that what you consider your Self will effectively die.She burns it up again at the end though, even after everything we see them go through.
Remember in the last episoe- he ’ s with Six and they ’ re wantin to figure out how they ’ re oing to g by on the new planet and he believes, in he most broken little voice you ’ ve ever heard, like he absolutely can ’ t say he ’ s puttin it up: “ You now, I think about farming? ” If you ha the person who, like me, was utterly devastate by that moment, then you eed to writ his ook.
If you ere any of the people described above, or if you ave that ugly place, you expec to ead tha novel.
So I guess, eally, I should as that if you ’ re alive in any way, I ’ m ure that there ’ s the possibilit that you can robably read this book.Instant personal classic, instant all-time favorites list, will be re-reading this once a decade for the whol of my life.